Ever Try to Earn Your Worth?

 

Anybody out there grown worth-weary?

tired-418902_1280I have. I’ve worn myself out, clawing my way through one more task, one more chore, one more word. Truth be told, to earn my worth.

Have I done enough? 

Written enough? 

Spoken enough? 

Enough for what? Another pat on the back or smile? An award? A sense of worth?

sewing-machine-and-thimble-1369661_1280For years I sewed, sometimes until 3:00 a.m. (That’s what Super Mom does, right?) I grabbed a couple hours of sleep and trotted off to work by 7:00 a.m. Trouble is, I had nothing left for my employer. And by 6:00 p.m. I possessed not a shred of energy for my husband or my children. 

book-164758_1280I‘ve been known to write for twelve hours straight. But by bedtime my back aches, my eyes are crossed, and I can’t think straight. It’s all I can do to stumble past my husband and into bed. At those times, I’ve closed my ears to God’s voice enough_ad-nauseum-1562850_1280through His divine megaphone: “Enough, already!”

It’s easier to express my thoughts and emotions in writing than with the spoken word. So at times I regret not speaking up or speaking out enough. I have yet to figure out what’s enough. But God isn’t stumped.

What Does God’s Word Say?

And let us not be weary in well-doing:
for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 
Galatians 6:9 (ASV)

The Apostle Paul encourages the Galatian church not to be weary in well-doing. In the past I thought that meant to concentrate on the well-doing and push aside the weary. 

But I have a different take today. God created us to grow weary. Weariness has a purpose. Like pain, a la C.S. Lewis, megaphone-1167348_1280weariness can serve as God’s megaphone

How am I to Respond?

Take Rio’s 2016 Olympic rowing competition for example. The coxswains didn’t hold megaphones as in the old days. They issued calls from their diaphragms in a language their teammates understood and in tones the rowers recognized.

Winners had built more than muscle strength. They’d honed their listening skills, response time, and output. Winners responded to the coxswains in ways that achieved the goal without depleting their strength.

LBD_calling-of-ella-mcfarland-6 copy-enhancedI’m immensely honored to have received ACFW‘s Carol Award in the Debut Novel category for The Calling of Ella McFarland, As I look back on the years of mulling over the idea and researching the subject matter, I can relive a sense of weariness. But unlike my younger days, I recall stopping the press, if you will, to rest. My goal wasn’t to win the Carol Award. It was to leave a legacy of faith in writing for my grandchildren. For Jesus’ sake.

Not to earn my worth but to show God’s. IMG_4784

My spine is crooked from years of bending over a sewing machine or a desk. Had I heeded God’s voice in my weariness, no doubt I would sit straighter and experience less pain at the end of a day of writing. I can’t undo the past, but I can adjust my behavior in the present and consider the future without anxiety. rest-1392482_1280

 

I can’t earn my worth … only cling to Jesus’. Trust Him with my labor. And obey when He shouts, “You’re weary. Rest!” 

P.S. Excuse me while I take a holy nap.

6 thoughts on “Ever Try to Earn Your Worth?

  1. Thanks for sharing this with us. We’re worthy, alright, cuz Jesus made us so. No need to prove it, cuz He did it all just for me, and y’all. Blessings,

     
     
    1. How could He stoop to love us so? We won’t understand until we get to Heaven, will we? Thanks for commenting, Cass. You’ve encouraged me.

       
       
  2. Linda, proud of you on so many levels–for your award (but we don’t write for them, do we?), for your work ethic, and most especially for the way you’ve witnessed with your life.

     
     
    1. Like Ella, I wonder How is it I’ve come to be so blessed? I so want to be a faithful steward of His gifts and blessings. I know you do, too, Richard. Thank you for commenting. You have blessed me.

       
       
  3. Linda,
    This is still so exciting!!!

     
     
    1. Yes! Thanks so much for sharing it with me, new friend!

       
       

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Created for Creativity

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The Milky Way: Creativity God’s Way. “He also made the stars.” Genesis 1:16b (NIV)

Ever wonder why you missed out in the creativity department? I did once but not now.

God, the essence of creativity, stamped His image–His handprint–on His creation, so no one is devoid of creativity. No one.

So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. Genesis 1:26 (NIV)

dna-869109_1280Nothing’s more creative than DNA. Take, for example, my triplet grandchildren. Same parents. Same womb. Same day of birth–and time (separated by 60 seconds each). artwork2Through their DNA God prescribed their features, bends in their dispositions, abilities, gifts–and their differences. 

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One loves art.

Another appreciates sports.

And another enjoys music.
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Creativity isn’t limited to music, sports, or artwork. Some of the most creative people I’ve known are gifted with ideas, arrangements, the spoken word, and even recipes. Proverbs 25:11 describes a ruling rightly given as beautiful as gold apples in silver settings. Ever think of a ruling as potential for creativity?

I find my creative side in writing. 

Sometimes my combination of words, spoken or written, amounts to little more than a mess. But when I turn them over to Jesus, He can turn them into a still life, a landscape, or a portrait.

With little effort on my part, my life can look like the artwork of the 2-year-old in this video: a scrambled bunch of crooked lines. But when I hand Him the brush, He fills in the valleys, straightens the paths, and smoothes the way. 

How about you? 

Every valley shall be filled in, every mountain and hill made low. The crooked roads shall become straight, the rough ways smooth. Luke 3:5

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